Sunday, January 10, 2010
i just realised (yet again) , that life is a bore. routines makes me sick, but that's how life is.
i'm really happy to have the people around me, my family and friends, who make my life more interesting.
i have been thinking about my future. and woah, i realised that it's so dark, so unsure, so blurry.
what i wanna study after ord? IDK.
what career i want in my lfie? IDK.
i'm not prepared to be an adult just yet, but it's coming my way. and we are all growing, soon there'll be a time when i just loses everything, my loved ones, my friends, and it's just saddening to know that everything will be lost. i'm not sure whether i'll be able to survive in the future.
i mentioned this to yt before, he asked me not to think too much and to take a step at a time. it's just that when i think of it, it's sad. then i'll start asking how is it possible for other people to be so clear of what they want in their life, and i dont. guess i just don't have the brain, or wadeva qualities they possesses.
it's just lots and lots of uncertainties. and it's just scary to think about them. are these signs of maturity? i don't know, but the sooner i get to know these answers to my questions, the better. for now i'm juz denying the fact that i'm already so old and also the responsibilities of an adult. i guess it's my personality that causes me to do so. oh well, what to do? suck thumb. time waits for no man.
well, my thoughts aside. Happy 21st BIRTHDAY to LOY!! although i don't think he will be reading this. hope that u'll stay crazy and cheerful as always. =] sorry that i didden come for yesterday's gathering. had smth on.
today, i met jianxiong and kevin for yet another movie, Cirque Du Freak: The Vampire's Assistant.
the movie was not too bad, and obviously they'll have a sequel to it. hahaha. the music was nice, as commented by jx and well i guess, the movie deserves a rating of 4/5. or at least a 3.5/5. btw, the male lead is named, DARREN. lol. just saying for the fun of it. lol.
alrite, i gonna book in soon anyway, life of a staying in ns personnel. anyway, i'll just end with a shoutout to a friend of mine.
to u, whom decided to leave us. i've nothing to say. i just hope that u didden regret what u did, and u're feel better by leaving. but, just to add, u could have talk to us as we are there, no matter what the problem is. Rest in Peace, my friend.
